Sometimes I think we need a reality check. We need to be re grounded to our beliefs. This week has made me become re-centered in some aspects. This week is the first real summer week in Boone. The weather is hot and wet. There are some opportunity’s for night sessions, but sending your project is slowly becoming less realistic. This is a sobering fact for some, and the end of a great season for others, and at the end I can say I was disappointed in myself until tonight honestly. I feel like this post is more than needed, and I can say it goes out to my friends who I think are the only people reading this thing anyways. As I opened this week I looked down on myself for the things I didn’t accomplish. I have not climbed harder than v4, and I can say things like I see possibilities for higher grades in the near future, but ultimately that is what they are.. possibilities, and not realities. I came into the week pushing myself as much as I could, and reassessing my climbing to figure out the weak points that needed to be filled. At the end of this week I can say im proud. I ate right, and pulled hard…. but yet I still feel a little empty, but why? After my first route setting I’ve had my ego fed by people telling me my problems are perfect, and Im looking strong training in the gym… I found the answer tonight laying on the floor holding a plank, and simply finding a text from a dear friend pop up as I stared at a timer. This is not climbing, and I know better than that.
Flashing back a little over year ago I remember why I love rock climbing, because I met some of the most amazing people in my life. My friends that I have gained from this mean more than I can explain. They are all people I look up to. They are warm, and truly to me a family. They have seen me at my worst, and pick me up. They are good at laughing at me, but helping when its needed. I cant believe I’ve been fortunate enough to know them. I will be off this weekend to Grayson Highlands, and on this I want to highlight a few.
Carson- I swear on the fact you have become one of my best friends. You are way more mature than you should be, and I pray you continue to be yourself. Your a beautiful person.
Drexel- Honestly, I don’t think you will ever understand how much I value your opinion. Although sometimes it hurts, I know your truly trying to help me and I wouldn’t want anything else.
Melise- The only thing I have to say is that I wish you success in everything in life. Your such a talented person, and I cant wait to see you in 10 years. I hope you continue to make the most out of it.
Zack- I would not want anyone else in the world to vent too. You are one of my best friends. Fact is very few people have invested time into caring about me as a person like you, period.
Kelley- Life is tough, and i feel like for how big of a hard ass you are, you have one hell of a soft spot. Your the best homie and I mean it.
Brennen- I don’t know anyone that’s willing to take the time to sit down and look at my messed up ankle just because they care, thank you. It takes a special person to take time out of there day to help people.
Point is yes, I want to pull hard more than anything. I want so see success, and have people relate me to being strong, but not at cost for what rock climbing is to me. I am going to go back to laying on my dusty floor now, and sweat my brains out. I will then wake up and eat my healthy breakfast after getting a full eight hours of sleep, do some yoga, then heal my skin as its my rest day. I damn sure wont do it to big dick anyone, or to go to the gym to show how many pulls I can do on a campus rung. This time ill do it for the fact that rock climbing is the most fun, and meaning thing I can and have to do right now. It has taught me so much already, and given me more than I can ask for. So ill hold the next one for an extra minute for y’all.
Psyched for ?Grayson. Lets get it bo!